I don’t know!
These three little words are so liberating.
Yet from an early age, the first question that a child asks is WHY. It is the curiosity of our human nature to want to know why. This search for the why also keeps us stuck in a reality where we look to others for the answers. In the same way that a child seeks answers from adults.
As we age, we realize that some answers don’t make sense. Or we have come across more aspects of life that defy words or appear to have no explanation.
If you are like me, that inner program of wanting to know why led me on a merry wild goose chase for many years. I devoured books and followed many trails that eventually led to nowhere. But that didn’t stop me from thinking and speaking as if I knew the answers.
Little by little, I accepted that there is so much I don’t know. I don’t know what will happen in the next instant. I don’t know if what I read is true or not. I don’t know why some people behave the way they do. I don’t know why we have wars.
The more I let go of the need to know and became comfortable with what I didn’t know, the more my life became less stressful. I was more content. I could deal better with what life presented me. I found that what I need to know always finds me without having to look for it. I have a deeper trust in my inner guidance
I am still curious and pay attention to what comes before me, but I am no longer attached to the answer. Neither accepting nor rejecting what is only being aware and knowing from that place within what is best for me.
With love, joy and gratitude,
Carolynne